He Sees. He Knows. He Cares.

To the Choirmaster. A Psalm of David.

O Lord, you have searched me and known me!

You know when I sit down and when I rise up;

you discern my thoughts from afar.

You search out my path and my lying down

and are acquainted with all my ways.

Even before a word is on my tongue,

behold, O Lord, you know it altogether.

You hem me in, behind and before,

and lay your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;

it is high; I cannot attain it.

 

Where shall I go from your Spirit?

Or where shall I flee from your presence?

If I ascend to heaven, you are there!

If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!

If I take the wings of the morning

and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,

even there your hand shall lead me,

and your right hand shall hold me.

If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,

and the light about me be night,”

even the darkness is not dark to you;

the night is bright as the day,

for darkness is as light with you.

 

For you formed my inward parts;

you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

Wonderful are your works;

my soul knows it very well.

My frame was not hidden from you,

when I was being made in secret,

intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed substance;

in your book were written, every one of them,

the days that were formed for me,

when as yet there was none of them.

 

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!

How vast is the sum of them!

If I would count them, they are more than the sand.

I awake, and I am still with you.

 

Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God!

O men of blood, depart from me!

They speak against you with malicious intent;

your enemies take your name in vain.

Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord?

And do I not loathe those who rise up against you?

I hate them with complete hatred;

I count them my enemies.

 

Search me, O God, and know my heart!

Try me and know my thoughts!

And see if there be any grievous way in me,

and lead me in the way everlasting!

— Psalm 139 (ESV)

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Shifting Focus

The past two or three months have been a struggle. Triumph and defeat; gain and loss. There were episodes of overwhelming joy and faith-shaking pain.  Only a trusted few know the details; but truly by the Lord’s grace, I am able to press on.  Here’s the catch, though:  I’m not writing today for the purpose of ranting; but to point you to the Person who keeps me going.

‎”He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation. For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities – all things were created through him and for him. And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church. He is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in everything he might be preeminent. For in him all the fullness of God was pleased to dwell, and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether on earth or in heaven, making peace by the blood of his cross.” (Col.1:15-20)

This is what greeted me this morning.  Before getting to this, I was wondering why I kept on singing “God of the Ages” (the one written by Travis Doucette) at the bathroom. In a very unusual place… I was singing my heart out, a song of worship, to the Lord.  When I opened Scriptures (not randomly, by the way; instead, it was the assigned passage from my reading plan), I somehow figured the reason why I kept singing the said song.

More than the encouragement, I took it as an open rebuke from the Lord.  In my mind, I thought I was already touching on the “nitty gritty” of my circumstances.  I thought was getting deep into the point.  But in my heart, I wasn’t humble enough to let God take hold of all the details. I wasn’t that eager to seek what He wants me to learn these past months.  I was submitting to Him, only partially.  I could say that I was somehow full of myself, instead of dying to self and following Christ.

Today, He reminded me to “zoom out” of my own plans and standards.  I need to snap out from being a “subconscious results-oriented control freak”.  Conversely, He drew me back to His Word and prodded me to “zoom in” to His Heart.  It’s time for me to shift focus.

Ultimately, I was refreshed by the truth that Christ Jesus holds all things together — through Him and only for Him.  It is God’s character, and nothing can ever change that!