The past weeks have been crazy and tiring. First, it’s tiring because… well, it’s just point-blank tiring. It has been physically and mentally draining. Haha, I guess it merits no further explanation.
Next, it’s crazy. It’s crazy, primarily because I don’t know why people call me up or send me messages in order to invite me to do things that I perceive I’m not so much capable of doing. And part of that list of things that I wish I would not do is speaking in front of big crowds.
I’d qualify a “big crowd” as a group consisting of more than twenty people, believe me or not. This may not be the same for everyone. That’s just my personal definition of it, despite me being noted as a “people person”. If you’re familiar with “Solving the People Puzzle”, in the DISC paradigm, the “I” (for Influence) is the only component that remains recessive. Mostly on weekends, you’d find me at either Red Ribbon or Bo’s Coffee in Madrigal or Molito area teaching in a small group setting (with about not more than ten people). If a crowd would be asked who among them are the “small group” people, I might as well raise my hand. I guess, I was just wired that way.
When year 2012 opened, however, the Lord has been nudging me to go out of my “comfort zone” in an entirely new level. Speaking engagements here. Then, teaching tasks there. Mentoring people, and the list goes on. I have to admit that it could get scary and that it unnerves me, knowing that there could be a bunch of guys out there more fit for the job. Yet the Lord really has His own unique ways of teaching me that as His disciple – I should deny myself, take up His cross, and follow Him. It’s never easy, but in this manner, He is the One placed on the pedestal. Not me. He’ll be the one who is going to enable me to do the task; and as a result, His glory shines brightest!
Now, here’s a realization: He equips those whom He calls. (And I’m pertaining to every Christ follower, not just the ordained or those in professional full-time ministry.) He provides and cares for us. He leads us by His loving hand! Given all these truths, I am secure that He will carry me from Point A going to Point B. He’ll definitely make sure that He gets the job done in me and through me!
What’s our part, then, in this case? Admit your weakness, and declare Your dependence unto Him. Let God work His way in your life, and allow Him to use you for His glory.
Is it going to be easy? Nope, since there are a lot of risks involved.
How long will the process take? The answer’s indefinite, but certainly not overnight.
Is it really wise to depend on Him? Well, if you pledge allegiance with Jesus, then it’s going to be the wisest choice you’ll ever make in your life.
So today, I humbly confess that I’m weak, that I should shun pride, and that I desperately need the Lord. Like the apostle Paul, I shall boast of my being weak. Why? It is because God’s grace is sufficient and His power is made perfect in our weakness. It may sound like a paradox for the majority since the world does not normally operate this way. However, God can only break through in the lives of people whose hearts are totally abandoned to Him.
Perhaps, the Lord is asking you to let go of your pride or of too much control. Maybe those are things that stand between you and Him at this moment, don’t you think?
I pray you’d take that life-changing step of faith today.