Weak and Proud!

The past weeks have been crazy and tiring. First, it’s tiring because… well, it’s just point-blank tiring.  It has been physically and mentally draining. Haha, I guess it merits no further explanation.

Next, it’s crazy.  It’s crazy, primarily because I don’t know why people call me up or send me messages in order to invite me to do things that I perceive I’m not so much capable of doing.   And part of that list of things that I wish I would not do is speaking in front of big crowds.

I’d qualify a “big crowd” as a group consisting of more than twenty people, believe me or not.  This may not be the same for everyone. That’s just my personal definition of it, despite me being noted as a “people person”. If you’re familiar with “Solving the People Puzzle”, in the DISC paradigm, the “I” (for Influence) is the only component that remains recessive. Mostly on weekends, you’d find me at either Red Ribbon or Bo’s Coffee in Madrigal or Molito area teaching in a small group setting (with about not more than ten people).  If a crowd would be asked who among them are the “small group” people, I might as well raise my hand.  I guess, I was just wired that way.

When year 2012 opened, however, the Lord has been nudging me to go out of my “comfort zone” in an entirely new level.  Speaking engagements here. Then, teaching tasks there.  Mentoring people, and the list goes on.  I have to admit that it could get scary and that it unnerves me, knowing that there could be a bunch of guys out there more fit for the job.  Yet the Lord really has His own unique ways of teaching me that as His disciple – I should deny myself, take up His cross, and follow Him.  It’s never easy, but in this manner, He is the One placed on the pedestal.  Not me.  He’ll be the one who is going to enable me to do the task; and as a result, His glory shines brightest!

Now, here’s a realization: He equips those whom He calls. (And I’m pertaining to every Christ follower, not just the ordained or those in professional full-time ministry.)  He provides and cares for us.  He leads us by His loving hand! Given all these truths, I am secure that He will carry me from Point A going to Point B.  He’ll definitely make sure that He gets the job done in me and through me!

What’s our part, then, in this case?  Admit your weakness, and declare Your dependence unto Him.  Let God work His way in your life, and allow Him to use you for His glory.

Is it going to be easy? Nope, since there are a lot of risks involved. 

How long will the process take? The answer’s indefinite, but certainly not overnight.

Is it really wise to depend on Him? Well, if you pledge allegiance with Jesus, then it’s going to be the wisest choice you’ll ever make in your life.

So today, I humbly confess that I’m weak, that I should shun pride, and that I desperately need the Lord.  Like the apostle Paul, I shall boast of my being weak.  Why?  It is because God’s grace is sufficient and His power is made perfect in our weakness.  It may sound like a paradox for the majority since the world does not normally operate this way.  However, God can only break through in the lives of people whose hearts are totally abandoned to Him.

Perhaps, the Lord is asking you to let go of your pride or of too much control.  Maybe those are things that stand between you and Him at this moment, don’t you think?

I pray you’d take that life-changing step of faith today.


Shifting Focus

The past two or three months have been a struggle. Triumph and defeat; gain and loss. There were episodes of overwhelming joy and faith-shaking pain.  Only a trusted few know the details; but truly by the Lord’s grace, I am able to press on.  Here’s the catch, though:  I’m not writing today for the purpose of ranting; but to point you to the Person who keeps me going.

‎”He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation. For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities – all things were created through him and for him. And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church. He is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in everything he might be preeminent. For in him all the fullness of God was pleased to dwell, and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether on earth or in heaven, making peace by the blood of his cross.” (Col.1:15-20)

This is what greeted me this morning.  Before getting to this, I was wondering why I kept on singing “God of the Ages” (the one written by Travis Doucette) at the bathroom. In a very unusual place… I was singing my heart out, a song of worship, to the Lord.  When I opened Scriptures (not randomly, by the way; instead, it was the assigned passage from my reading plan), I somehow figured the reason why I kept singing the said song.

More than the encouragement, I took it as an open rebuke from the Lord.  In my mind, I thought I was already touching on the “nitty gritty” of my circumstances.  I thought was getting deep into the point.  But in my heart, I wasn’t humble enough to let God take hold of all the details. I wasn’t that eager to seek what He wants me to learn these past months.  I was submitting to Him, only partially.  I could say that I was somehow full of myself, instead of dying to self and following Christ.

Today, He reminded me to “zoom out” of my own plans and standards.  I need to snap out from being a “subconscious results-oriented control freak”.  Conversely, He drew me back to His Word and prodded me to “zoom in” to His Heart.  It’s time for me to shift focus.

Ultimately, I was refreshed by the truth that Christ Jesus holds all things together — through Him and only for Him.  It is God’s character, and nothing can ever change that!