Pardon me for the abrupt lengthy silence. I yearned to write for the longest time, but I opted to wait. I believe I just had to wait. I was at a period of restlessness since the month of March up until May — a span of time wherein I totally wrestled with the Lord. And gradually… He shunned my doubts, silenced my fears, and relieved the intense anxiety.
I was only able to slowly overcome the struggle, not because I was good enough. Instead, I guess was merely honest enough to express my need to depend on the Lord. My restlessness only turned to a phase of rest, when I said “yes” to God and let loose the nets I’ve tightly held on to (cf. Luke 5:1-11).
“Teach me your way, O Lord, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name.” (Ps. 86:11 BNIV)
This passage I meditated on last night, I believe, sums up what I’ve been desperately asking the Lord to teach me these past few months. Despite my seemingly sad tone, I’m actually excited to share further and could probably write on tonight just to clarify the context. But I’ll reserve my stories in the coming days and weeks. Bear with me some more.
For now, I just need to take a break and to contemplate on this new direction that God has set before me. If you may (especially if you’re one of my friends), please include me in your prayers. Pray that I would simply delight in the Lord and joyfully obey Him with an undivided heart. Just like what King David prayed for in Psalm 86.
Thank you and God bless you, my dear friends! Expect to hear more from me soon. 🙂